Please stay away from me!!The far the better

  Sy x tau knp perasaan sy bole jadi camnie..mrk tuh nk kate jaat x gak..dorang baik!!baik sgt..malah setiap kali kami berjumpa,mmg dorang yg tgor sy dlu..tp kan probnyer skang nie sy yg xnk tgo dorang..biarla dorang dkat ngn sy pown tp sy mmg xnk jmpa dorang langsung!!kalo bole sy xnk tgok mka dorang skali pown tp yer la kami blaja dbwh 1 bunbung..nk xnk kne bertemu gak kan???lebih2 ag kami nie 1 kos plak..mmg x bole nk elak la kan..tp tuh la..sy xnk jmpa dorang...sy mmg xnk jmpa dorang..kalo bole la kan..setiap kali kami bertemu,biarlah sy yg menghilangkan dri,,knp nie??sy xska la perasaan yg mcm nie...camner nk buang perasaan yg agk2 trok nie???
  Kalo dulu,sy la org yg slaloo tgor dorang nie..kekadang tuh bler sy ad prob or otak x bpe nk center,sy dtg kat dorang,mnx advice or something that can heal my wound perhaps...hahatp skang nie???ap da jd??knp sy rase mcm nk ilangkan dri stp kali sy bertemu ngn dorang nie???they still the same person who have the same behavior as before as i met them but why i have a feeling like this???a feeling to avoid them??sy x nk kawan ngn dorang ag ker??xmgkn ah...tp ntah!!!stiap kali mrk berkumpul sesame mrk,sy akn elakkan dri sy bertemu ngn mrk..
  Repeater..yes i am repeater!!!!mgkn sbb nie yg sbbkn sy ase mcm nk jauhkan dri sy dr bergaul ngn mrk..sy ase rendah dri...rendah sgt!!!sy ase malu kowt..malu sgt ngn dorang tp on the second thought..sy terfikir knp sy perlu ase rendah dri ngn mrk nie???hanya dsbbkn mrk lpas 1 thap dr sy n sy perlu ase rendah dri yg amat trok camnie????sampai nk ilangkan dri bagai???ap function??guys...tlg sy ilangkan perasaan nie...suma jie ridiculous tau!!rubbish!!ak bole blaja byk perkara kan???especially skang nie ak dpt lecturer yg mmg tersangat gempak!!!byk tol ak blaja dr dorang nie!!byk bg kami motivational talk n ilmu yg mmg tersangat luas la kn...dah la nurdict...xsemestinyer org yg exit tuh bgos sumanyer...kter pown ttp ebat per...cmer x dberi peluang utk menaiki 1 tangga ke hadapan jerk..kter bole troskan langak kter k dpn..jgn mengalah eyk??


p/s:I have to vanquish this kind of feeling from growing taller day by day but how????oh no..help me please..

~okay,i'm off~